too much pausing?

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Too Much Pausing?

I am recognizing that Pausing Turtle and I need to maintain some kind of balance…Too much pausing can be just as sticky as not pausing enough. As my meditation teacher has reminded me often, I need to spend less time turning things over inside and take action. I am finding that this is true for my writing as well. I have started 4 or 5 (okay probably 6) posts for my Blog. I keep going back to them, trying to get them just right before posting…and I keep hearing my teacher’s voice saying “Take action, Kathy”.

I have been belaboring on those 6 posts, which I think are all very compelling and wanting to get another post out soon. I want to keep the momentum going. Yet time is moving forward as I pause and pause, looking for just the right word, how best to express my experiences on this journey. I realize I am belaboring on these writings because I am listening to ego, which is telling me I am not good enough; I will never find just the right word. And of course if I don’t have just the right word, am not witty, profound, etc, no one will be interested in reading my writings.

My Blog may not be perfect (flawless, seamless, ideal, watertight, exceptional, outstanding,    exceptional…pick a word, any word), but I created it. And I moved through my fears and went public with it. This writing may not be all those words above either, but I am listening to my teacher, and taking action. I am encouraging ego to take a break, and publishing this post. I love to write and I love sharing with all of you as I continue to wander and wonder on this amazing journey.

7 thoughts on “too much pausing?

  1. Kathy, Katya, thanking for being brave enough to share this slice of the truth of your life just as it is, in this moment. It is perfect. You are perfect. And we all benefit. <>

  2. My dear… Being a person who whirls into everything then has to back track to make amends…I admire your desire to be succinct. In my eyes and why I am here at your blog is you are truly a remarkable woman with depth I have only seen glimpses of…..I want to hear your pauses…I want to see how you respond in your unique way…NO judgements from me and/or us. This is the first blog I have ever followed. Like I told Matthew my pottery student after we had a bonfire party for 12th night…you all seemed to have a good time…and he said, we were worried what your life long friends thought of us after the party. I said these people we have been friends with for 25-35 years, ARE friends because there is love and no fear and no judgement. My dear, write what you want when you want. I and these others, I am confident, are here to see what unfolds in your remarkable heart!

    • Thank you dear Stevie…I know there are no judgments from you. The judgments I write about are actually the inner critic, which we all have. Part of my practice is letting go of this, to the extent that I am able. I am grateful for our friendship

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